February 2011
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i refuse to sugarcoat life.
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Let's try something new.
I’ve seen other people do this, and it seems like a good idea for me too. Things are shitty right now (as you may have noticed from the last few days of posts). But I am going to list things that I have that are making me HAPPY and make me feel good each day. So here goes:
Sir Keith, because you make me smile and are good to me and are my best friend. Thanks for hanging out and eating...
I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here.
I sat in my car for over an hour. I drove home slow and them drove around the block for an additional 10 minutes. And it’s still too much time I have to be here.
Thank god for a 12 hour school day tomorrow. the least time I have to be home the fucking better.
I’ve been through a lot of...
Astronomy lab was really hard.. Hopefully just because the projector wasn’t working and I have trouble following along with just verbal directions… And when the projector works I’ll get it better.
Then I took the shuttle to and from my car for the first time. Ridiculously crowded. Coming back to my car I had to stand and got nauseous from all the movement.
Now I don’t...
January 2011
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practicing piano at 1am.
my wrist hurts. i definitely need to strengthen my right hand.
I planned on getting up at 10, but because of last night’s events I am still in bed at nearly 1. I still need to go to my dad’s, even though I would’ve preferred to go earlier. But I don’t want to leave my room and interact with the other occupants of the house.
It’s raining today. I usually dislike the rain, but it hasn’t rained in a month. I welcome it, just...
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homework to do list:
practice piano for Monday’s class
go over astronomy lab reading for Monday
read Ch.1 astronomy for Tuesday
read Ch.1 child+adolescent dev. for Tuesday
read book for self observation and dev., pick behavior i want to change and start keeping a diary of said behavior for Thursday
And i have until 6ish to do it all because i am seeing Yann Tiersen tonight. Then tomorrow afternoon i hope...
Anonymous asked: you're pretty
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i feel kinda bad that i am so happy that i don’t have to go to my dad’s tonight because he’s out of town for work…
but then i remember it’s the last school day of the week and i am pretty wiped out and can change into comfortable clothes early and not have to do anything for the rest of the day :D
Today is one of those days where my inside voice is very talkative, and everything I see and hear my inside voice has a response to it, and I have to try really hard not to laugh at it all.
Lulz.
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Is it wrong to get annoyed when people are...
My dad’s wife and her daughter are regularly asking me for favors ever since they moved over here from Italy almost four years ago. When I come over, it seems there is a new project for me to do. Fix the TV (or fax machine or computer). Take my stepsister to work or pick her up. Help write letters to get my stepsister’s grandmother get a visitor’s visa to the U.S. Etc. I like...
Just got out of what may be the best college class of my life. The weather is a perfect (imo) 78 degrees but there is a gentle coolness in the air. The walk from class to my car was calm and peaceful and enjoyable and at this moment I am feeling so good and I don’t want to go home because I know everything going on there will make me feel shitty and return to reality.
Can this moment just...
In my self observation and development class (3 hour class so we have a break) and it is definitely going to be my favorite of the semester.
I love psychology so much it’s unbelievable.
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selling more books on half.com
renew FAFSA
sign up and pay for writing proficiency exam
start the reading i have to do for tomorrow and thursday classes
playing therapist for my mother
oh adulthood. you’re busy, but being in charge of my life sure feels good.
And…. No percussion…
How come everyone but me gets the memo… Maybe because I’m the only girl and they want me out xD
Awkwardly waiting to see if my world percussion class starts this week or next week…..
If we don’t it’s good because my phone is close to dying and I’m tired and want to go home. But then that means I sat in my car alone for 3 hours for nothing….
This is my life…
First library nap of the semester was nice until it was ruined by some loud, obnoxious bros >_<
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So I don’t know if someone complained or what… But piano class this semester is WAY easier than it was last semester…
Were actually starting on scales and not transposing music and I get it and feel so relieved.
Off to a good start… Now for a 3 hour break X)
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another day of nothing…
i am almost excited to go back to school. at least i’ll get out of the house.
i just really REALLY don’t want to be as stressed and overwhelmed as last semester. that was awful.
this semester i just want to:
have fun learning and not stress out completely
have a set in stone plan for graduate school (i.e. see a counselor)
possibly start volunteering...
my sinuses are trying to ruin my life
i had what a believe was a sinus headache all day yesterday. for the past week my nose and throat have been stuffy. my asthma feels like it’s acting up. my ears are congested.
and it’s so lovely outside but i can’t breathe so i don’t enjoy it.
anddddd every medication i’ve tried either doesn’t work or makes me hallucinate.
ugh.
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My mother just asked me what tumblr was.
“Why..,” I asked, trying not to sound alarmed. I began becoming paranoid that she had maybe found mine (where I have done a decent amount of shit talking about her).
“Because Pee-wee (yes Herman… my mom is a fan… don’t ask) posted this and I wanted to post it on my facebook.”
This was the site: http://breadpeople.tumblr.com/ . Like I said, my mother is...
My stepsister thinks I am an at-call taxi service and calls me whenever she needs a ride to work.
So I just ignored her call. She never leaves a message either, so I never call back.
I don’t care if I am being a bitch. She is the ONLY person in the world I can say I just don’t like. Other people may annoy me, but I don’t go around disliking them on such a level as I do her. But...
woke up at 9:15 today to go buy school books
hopefully i don’t crash during the day and my sleep schedule is finally put back together
being a functioning member of society feels really weird
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today was probably the most boring day of my entire life.
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if i get straight As for the rest of my undergraduate career (unless I take more than the required amount of classes) the highest my GPA could go is 3.74
if i could, i would definitely go back to last year and tried harder… most of those classes were really really easy, and if i actually put effort into them i could have definitely gotten As rather than Bs
who in their right mind...
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I just want to graduate as soon as fucking possible and be independent and move out so I don’t have to hear shit about being “ungrateful” because I speak the truth and disagree with the people in this household.
It’s the reason I want to pay for all of my own shit even if people offer to pay stuff for me. Having to kiss ass and bow down to people because they support you...
i fucking hate this house
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prayers answered. God is good.